Chained

Recently, I'm facing many obstacles in life that I have never dealt before. Mainly, the problems are caused by people around me, and I know that I have always had issues coping with acquaintances, it is hard to please everyone without attaching yourself to those people. All I wanted is just to make friends and to find supports, yet the habit of caring for someone too much is draining my energy and life.

People survive in an environment by interacting with other human because we exist as a community not as a single entity. It is so hard now days for me to find a group which I truly belong, I can't find the type of supports I need from people around me, for they can't even help themselves. Often times, it feels like I'm stuck in my own life that I'm brindled by the current situation I cannot escape from. The urge of finding a group that could help me to excel seems like a tiny light glimmering at the end of a tunnel, and I at the very other end chained by the environment is desperate searching for a propeller that could push me forward. How I wished I could grow in an environment where people inspires me who could take me to the right path when I'm lost. I long for supports, and let there be someday that will obtain them....